Bring me closer to love

When I was a young blogger, I never understood why people didn't blog everyday.  Now I understand why; when you have a life it's difficult to "schedule" time to blog.  There's also the issue with privacy; how much do I want to share with people who visit my site.  If I wanted you to know I would've have told you by now.  I always found that my blog was a way for me to vent out my feelings and now I feel that I have to censor myself, especially since my boyfriend visits here once and again.  It's obvious that those strange short posts are about our relationship, free cookies to those who figured that out before I said this.

I'm just going to blog in no particular order since I don't know where to start. 

• I've been trying to exercise lately and I don't seem to be losing any weight, in fact I'm gaining weight.  It's been 2 years since I've started SFU, but I'd like to blame the freshmen 15.  I feel better since I'm actually eating breakfast, plus it's only been a month.  I don't have patience for this weight loss thing and people tell me liposuction is not the answer.  *sigh*  I even bought off "Walk Off Weight" from Prevention, so I'm really desperate to get my pre-relationship weight.  I don't feel as attractive to Paolo anymore because of it, sucky.  
  

• I've been trying to save up money this summer, but that was pushed back because of New York, Washington and Seattle.  Now I'm trying to save half (or more) of my pay cheque so I can afford that nice poofy wedding dress that I've always wanted and a house.  I'm even subscriping to Cosmo which will save me ~$30 a year; go me!
  

• I'm okay with cutting people out of my life, is that a bad thing?  There are people in my life that I keep in touch with because I went to high school with them.  I've moved on with my life and I'm okay with that.  I didn't like high school, boys didn't like me when I liked them!  I feel super comfortable around the friends that I have now and I can finally be myself.  There are SOME people I do like from high school, but not a whole lot. 
  

• My eye sight has gone to shit lately.  So I get to see an optomologist next week to get it checked.  It's been 5 years since I've seen one!!!
  

• I want a new camera, I fell in love with the Canon SD780 because it's all in black.  Things that are pure black = super sexe.  I don't need it, I want it ... I wish money grew on trees. 
  

• *sigh* I miss my boyfriend.  Most couples see each other three or four times a week, in some cases they see each other everyday.  I see Paolo once or twice a week for now since he's in school, but I took the summer off to hang out with him.  I sort of feel like I should've taken summer semester.  (Paolo, don't feel guilty for being smart and for going to school).