Somewhere we went wrong, we were once so strong.

You know that gut feeling that you have telling you something is wrong, but you ignore it and then it blows up in your face?  I have that feeling right now.

I feel so confused right now because I have no idea where to go from here.  Where do we go from here?  Nothing was solved, but we're still together.  I have a feeling that we're just going to ignore this problem and this whole situation is going to happen again.  We'll break up, you'll pack up my stuff, drive to my house, talk about how this can be solved and make up.  I don't want to be in a relationship where we do that.  This is the second time that we have done this cycle, it seems to happen every 12 months. 

I have also come to face the fact that I'll be sticking around so I make an effort to talk.  Honestly, I'm 20 years old and I need to talk.  I can't be shy around these people forever.  I kept quiet for a while because I didn't think that I'd be around this long.  I hate being socially awkward all the time, I need a class to be less awkward or something. 

I'm emotionally tired sometimes and I feel like shutting out everyone.